does this make me look fat?

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 18:01:23 GMT

its 10 am. im missing church.

:O

oops.

its ok, ive got the flu. i dont wanna infect anyone.

and geez, what the crap is the deal with lj now? its so different!

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 21:34:53 GMT

i have this knot in my heart lately. like for many reasons, one being that i wanna go back to school. i think i want to take psychology. infact ive been talking about it for a while, but i just dont know how im gonna do it with bills and junk. i mean, im gonna need to work and stuff.

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 01:14:45 GMT

recently i have a very large yawn for my music selection. it consists of over 3000 songs...and none of them i want to listen to. maybe the novelty has warn off.

i bought a new drumset a few weeks ago...and i have not even used it yet.

keep your eyes on me.

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 03:04:56 GMT

so its snowing....hooray! when i was on my way down the hill between my dads house and my moms i was cut off by another driver that i actually stalled my car. it was rediculas.

so i have decided that im going for the drumset. aside from the fact that playing is all i really want to do, i think since i already have a car that is worth nothing in resale value, i might as well just have ONE.

i went and saw relient k last night with the kids. it was great.

thats about it.

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 04:15:37 GMT

the question:

do i want a new old car, or a drumset? do i want a car that i can use for work, that can get dirty and be kicked around a bunch and i can kill the milage if i want. or do i want a drumset that i can use never and have nowhere to store it right now. a car that is old and will be cheaper to insure....im not getting rid of the cavalier, just parking her.

im thinking car.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 07:01:02 GMT

today just felt like spring. all i want is for the sun to wrap its arms around me.

i finally gave my stella a bath today. she's looking so fine.

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 20:09:41 GMT

i am having an urge to have a fidgit reunion. it has something to do with cody listening to it right now as i am online.

i have to work from 3:30 till midnight tonight.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:11:04 GMT

in other news i have decided that even though my car does not have feelings, that doenst mean that i can't feel what i think it feels. my poor stella.

that also goes for all the things i seem to treasure a little, but are still "things"

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:05:32 GMT

so one last day off and its back to work for me. i have decided that as i am unsatisfied at the mill, i will work for the winter....and at least for the remainder of this dry time of the year in the 'hiring' world. or something like that.

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 02:53:12 GMT

i am un-surprisingly content with this state im in, in the state of not working. not that i hate working so much...but its the time i have been able to spend doing better things. working a night job is not quite my cup of tea.

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 03:46:02 GMT

there are no pickles for my sandwich. so if your a delirious fan, id recoment their latest cd entitled the mission bell. its great. this is the 3rd time ive eaten today. its a new record for the year.

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 04:39:59 GMT

i do believe that this journal has become the outburst of my unnatural pessimism. this is perhaps part of the reason of my conditional bleeding heart. here is where i mark the lies of my heart that so delicatly tell tales of the misbelief in my soul, or my lack of faith if you will.....or something to that effect.

lately i have done an awful lot of walking. and im not done yet. sometimes i wonder just how many steps i have actually taken. and just maybe how many km's i have walked and climbed tru this life. just sometimes though.

ps...don't eat that banana...it's not even real.

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 05:20:39 GMT

ive been throwing around a combo of delirous, death cab for cutie, jars of clay and trice. excellent. i think they all touch base in different parts of my personallity. ive been in this awkward position for this last month. the last time i felt this way, a bunch of the music i listened to became the key to bad memories. i dont think that will happen again. maybe ive grown up since then. i hope so. all ive done in the last 3-4 days is walk and drive. i have almost 1000 km's of time in my car, and many hours on my feet. its seems to be the only way to pass the time that for some reason doesnt seem to want to end. but it will. it always does.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 03:20:55 GMT

i think im hyper... just a little tho. hehe. and for some reason i seem to be eating! hmmm. i think this calls for some toast. all my friends are either doing something tonight, or, jsut not up to doing anything...soooooo ima gonna play this one at my moms.

ps...i had to shave off the ol' side burns today....due to an uncleaver mistake with sharp metal edges.

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 06:27:03 GMT

alright, it's done. i withdraw my claim. now i will pack my bags and move on from here.

do you ever find that you cannot except the decision that you have already made?

it's been at least a year since i have seen christmas last.

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 06:36:03 GMT

one hour and a half left. tomorrow is the day of the season. this season is by-far my favorite of them all. but what i don't like, is that after this one week it all goes back to normal, but i know that too much of this season will just degrade it. so anyway.

tonight is my 8th birthday as a christian. i was saved as a kid, but i really really made the concious decicion to follow my Lord 8 years ago tonight. yay.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 04:43:07 GMT

in other news, i was at ethical edictions tonight to buy a hot chocolate (and to unexpectidly visit carissa...do you still work there?) and as i was walking in, some empty black cavalier, other than mine, was parked and as i walked behind it it begun to roll back toward me. it stopped pretty much right away. but it shure was weird.

i have 4 day's, left of work and then i have at least 2 weeks holiday, with the possibility of being layed off for a while longer. yay.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 04:00:24 GMT

i am finding myself living a life that has trapped me in a downward spiral of obsession that my mind puts to heart and to objects that seem to have no meaning. i am nothing, i am ending. i am envious of what i see; to be what i want, and nothing i am is what is saw when i decided that this was not going to be me. i lost me appetite too.
i am selfish to believe that this could be me. because i know what i am-but i don't, and i know that too. i was split in half before birth, by the God over the impossible only to search out my better half, which i seem to have lost in the dark-to which, i see no end.

my name is "'y'image" backwards

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 07:55:21 GMT

kyle has written a new song that rocks. so i have made up a drum beat for it that also rocks.

gravamaylia.

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 07:23:27 GMT

have you ever wished that you could have a rearview mirror while your walking so that you can see behind you?

i bought my first pair of jeans today. i have never bought myself new jeans. i always get handmedowns from my brothers.

the bass drum i want is twice as long as any normal drum. its actually 2 put together. i like it cause it looks like a canon.

10 minutes ago i ran a red light (hardly) in the intersection that i recently had a major accident in. except i was going south not north.

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 02:15:37 GMT

im going to eat fried perogies tonight for the first time in a while. Mmmmm. tonight i will walk into zellers for the last time as an employee, and hopefully i will never work here again. the mill called today and im working tomorrow night. i miss my job. actually, my dad suggested that i make my way into mill writing (and i dont mean with a pen) so that i can branch out into the shop industry. not a bad idea.

what will i do.

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 03:24:09 GMT

i asked for no ice. but as usual someone isn't paying enough attention. i wish i got paid to not pay attention. just stay quiet, pay attention. i am finding myself wishing i was working in the mill again. not just fo the money i mean, like the simple stupid stupid stupid stupid work i had to do doesn't seem so bad. then again i am finding that im just to scared to start a new job somewhere. it's not like my job is very stable in the mill right now, so i kind of have nothing to lose. but i still don't feel comfortable yet. i want a normal 9-5 job. then i can still see the day, and sleep when the sun sleeps. and still make good money.

excellent with a capital "T"

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 06:13:49 GMT

its amazing how fast we grow up. i mean, my stella rose just turned over 10000km's this weekend. so tonight as i was driving home, i decided that just randomly driving was a bad financial decision for my circumstances. so as i was randomly driving the back roads of mission, i was thinking of my job situation. right now my mom is asking her superviser if she can get me a job at zellers. it would be awesome with a side of arbitrary. currently i am laid off of the mill, but maybe only for a week. maybe two, or maybe three. i think they need to sell about 3-6 million board feet. thats a whole lot of feet.
tonight kyle was recording some stuff, and i think were gonna try something soon. like some drum additions from a kid named jd. sweet sugar bags smarty. im wearing my old favorite pants. they have an orginal ripped hole in the knee. theyre so emo.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 07:05:43 GMT

its too late to eat now. but i am. how nice of you to feel sorry for me. you do right? i caught a sweet cold this week. yuck. my little migrain just went away, so thats a bonus. so i was thinking....

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 18:12:55 GMT

hi.